5 of Wands – Change of the Spirit – The Voice of the Name

100% have some massive ego problems—Arrogance/ignorance.

I’m on a spiritual path I cannot get off.

I asked everybody for help. To not understand what that did to me. She was like do you need a man—I was like let me tell you about yours.

[She’s a] perfectionist. Family trait. ←Feminine. We’re all soul family. I love you so much right now.

Just ’cause I’m a threat. Thousands of dollars in the hospital. Nervous. What you experience on 1 level you experience on all. Thank you for standing up for me, no one ever stands up for me—no one does that anymore. [comment cards].

A review and an open letter. The key to success.

Thick butt tight skirt walking. She doesn’t want anything from you. Benny Medina dinner table. Boring reviews or something.

Logic to it—logic to what I do → A lot of time and effort.

All in the name of love.

[She’s a] devil in disguise. [me]. Hillbilly. Jelly beans. The way is the true way.

Girl getting pounded from back – now missionary – her passionate. Third option. Making up stories.

Heaven’s stories. Led and guided. Entrusted. Trajectory. Feminine glasses nerd cute.

Somebody who gives a fuck about honor.

Princess Sophia french fries.

Intuitively guided. I try to use my intuition. On point. Clarity defined.

The long way is the hard way. Bipartisanship.

With all those butterflys in your stomach. 5th dimension.

Maybe it would help if I ate more – maybe I couldn’t help myself. If I work out. Way too young for me. Married man. [Be] kinda kinky—spiritual union. Look like a stripper. Attack you for going blind. Black creek name. Early detection. Pyramid roofing. Wood panels to the side. You know you don’t have to do this in an welcome chart. Crabs creep her out. –Side chick. What will she lice about it. Lower the standard for messy marriage.

You know how you are on the inside and that’s great.

Powerful woman. Soundwave opportunity.

Give you a membership to her favorite club.

Knock on her door some more. 5th dimension.

Finagle. Jungle right. Scabies → pretty girl looking back in court at [guy] didn’t look right to me before. Marriage counseling. Persnickety. ← pretty girl looking back in audience. Woman’s rights. Court. I guess I should have came out with the truth to not cause so many scars. Nauseating.

Ellipticals and brainwash.

It’s a bitter end.

Gender role. Just my person or not?

Both woman judge you. Judging character traits. News/revelation to them.

Seeing in the Spirit. Owner’s pride—Owner’s contentment. I should say 1 more thing. Dante’s inferno.

Justice on the purest level. Revenge.

Come back and bite you.

2 good woman for a side chick – both woman judge you.

BPA disorder. Both woman judge you correctly. Down under.

‘I don’t ever want’a stop‘. If you kill yourself.

Connect the dots. An emotional connection with her. –Side chick/Worker. Little girl. Little boy. ‘You’ll find better love‘.

Believe me it sucks without you here.

Horny. The horror horn situation.

Chris died on his cross for you.

Richmond VA. Can’t get me off anymore. Drunk. Just let him do his own thing. Not disciplined enough. ‘You’ll find better love‘.

Accept me for who I am. The devil energy.

My love and poverty. Much like covert narcissism.

Vision of 2 people French. Sometimes you post pictures. Sleep. To connect the dots. Mailbox. Pledge—is it a certain plan. You’ll thank me. ‘You’ll find better love—strong as it ever was‘. Big cock – little pussy – scabies.

I almost fell in love [with him again] A voice to the voices.

I kept having dreams where a part of me was splitting/dropping/falling off to the side and this was the aspect of the twin flame union choosing to unite with a soulmate, another one.

Me let go so they can be together—me accept.

In a state of alliance. – allegiance.

I’m a warrior dork at heart.

Win if you both if nothing comes out of this situation.

I felt like someone has – had pushed my will around to the will of God.

I’m a follower of sand/willow… does a roofie knock you because it’s not good.

I’m on a soul path nobody can walk but him.

I pray he’s going to be okay – he’s going to be okay don’t worry.

Glimpses of the truth.

Your period of gaslighting sucked –Feminine to Twin.

Instead of having sexual attention. –to Feminine?

Meds… I can’t live without ‘em. Like I said. Killed my will.

Fortune 500. Hamas – everybody is so jealous.

Fully surrender to the divine plan.

What kind of vision does a 14 year old have.

You will make sure – you can beg people to check your lifeline.

Have I kissed too many zebras. –vision: . Someone ‘bout killed you or something like that. ←metaphorically.

5 of Wands – Change of the Spirit.

You wouldn’t believe I didn’t qualify with the schedule –dad explaining to have your… . to have your ancestry. –dad explain we could … pay more artwork. Feeling – cats roll on back. Poke’. Us feeling innocent –getting comfort in living room. … with → parking lot, mom, dad, brother, me.

Couldn’t get through to you to hear anything you were saying.

→ parking lot → me slam/try … and passenger door [that I crawled over to be away]. dad tinting vehicle and white – it took me a second to get there. They’re all friends on Facebook, the side of him I never saw. I’m blocked.

I was laying in bed waiting to talk to → .

Who wouldn’t want to meet a gym owner that they liked. –Love is Blind. –Casey Anthony.

Imagine by correcting numbers.

I was. A window of innocence →future timelines/dream.

So high feelin’ really incredible.

Rahual – he’s out there somewhere.

I almost slammed my hair tips in door – but didn’t, caught before → I crawled back over to the driver’s side.

The afterworld sounds amazing. Glimpses I get → The eternal world and our soul energy bodies.

I honestly tried and did everything I could to save/preserve the relationship → could not find the real him during process.

Lost souls. Who will evolve.

Any trick? Meditate and contemplate. Shapiro.

I’m being fulfilled. ←Nobody look at you that strong anymore.

Like he was thankful for divorce and waiting for wind to blow over. October what I want –recording.

Those sources. : from a really accurate information.

Part of me – part of you.

‘Part of me will live in you’.

Surprised on some/writing and the valid education.

The vibration of truth.

I am struggling with this girl too much too much – I don’t care what it is for me now.

Scabies. So far what sparks do you… .

You have many soulmates, you have 1 twin flame.

A generous guy that you knew.

The side of him I never saw.

Just wasn’t natural I guess. Just wanted to talk but it’s like I couldn’t to you.

You just aren’t that visionary of expansive leader I envisioned.

Shortchange yourself.

Trophy wife.

Emotionally fulfilling individual.

The bed I was living in felt like a crib [laying in].

It’s like I was a skunk and protected because no one could see the real me behind my trances.

Or maybe they could and my heart was too open.

I’m not 1 of many—I’m not an option—I am the first and only priority in my life. I just need to be alone.

Forget the ever present need of wanting acceptance in a group and that’s faded for me.

I just can’t relate and neither can they.

Alas.

[deep breath].

[heart harmony].

Akin to my world shattering.

The same similar fun → double incarnations for everyone.

I just could never be myself → or I thought I could and did for 6 months → your ∴ had a stick up her ass 24/7.

The elephant in the room is I love her.

If we just could have gone from there 11/2 years ago.

I don’t know about you – but life is short and rare.

Wasn’t for me this time/life/season/reason/social mechanism at its finest.

I just wanted to write.

People stress me out.

Baker’s dozen. Shortchange yourself. I tried, I really did – I can’t cross myself for any reasons. Look forward.

If I don’t keep up with it everyday, the avalanche it becomes.

Takes every bit of my time and will.

❤ ❤ ❤ .

Losing Brandyn Robertson. Woah.

Your love will fade—mine will never die.

I wanted it at all costs before – now I am complete.

The lifestyle I was ready to live with her → in the heavens.

He was never passionate for me, wasn’t in the cards or stars.

You lost my trust, friendship, and heart when all I ever wanted was the same energy and love I poured in, to be reciprocated, matched, or given back.

It felt like you were a vampire who took and took and took without reprieve. Killed my will.

I felt so drained and empty cupped—I kept pouring into you, you never noticed or cared.

I wish I could find someone like me.

Passionate, inspired, loving, giving, caring. I love who I am, have been.

It’s your healing and reckoning is the missing link, you’re not being Authentic.

I wish you listened to me → I really have something to say that was bigger than you.

I trust the divine powers that be.

Thank you for the protection, God. I deserve my honor back and she deserves to be called out. She’s a bold bitch –Masculine. Win if you lose. ‘Well if it’s not what I want what is it – you do lean into whatever’s before you the other person I assume – I really get that you need to make very sure that you’re making this determination at a higher level and less out of desire or frustration with what you’ve had because I think the challenge could be that whatever you claim next could be very informed by the old that wouldn’t be very helpful.’

Celibacy. Strong alibi.

The universe doesn’t give you what you want it gives you what you need.

You will be rewarded for your great work.

[Just have to] Get it out of your system. [being with her]. What you threw away. This is excellent. [writing]. Your divine masculine is beginning a new romantic cycle with a soulmate and as a divine feminine, you can feel this in your chakras. You have been brought to a point in your spiritual journey where the energy he will give is not deserving of where you are on your path. Some have fully accepted you will reunite in the next life. In around 100 years, the energy will be ready to be received by the planet. Continue to honor your ancestors, and keep ascending. I promise you the energy is not stabilized, and this is a benefit for the greater good.