I looked in mirror and [I thought did we look alike/resemble] while walking downstairs with Masculine [strung out]. Mirror: I thought and looked in my soul memory to future: did you see/sense me being with at any time in life? I had hips and was older/seasoned from life. I’m in the business with you. No one knows – no one cares. Give me a couple like soft balls

Redirect my energy – ∴ – ∴ surrender, give, void my wants/needs/just be thankful and pray. When open the sliding glass door at … . I will make sure you have needs, aligned divine.

Masculine went out and I was home/his new house – I walked downstairs and went down wrong door – wood and me shower and big spider I didn’t want to step on – I walked to back room – living room and bedroom. Person’s past stuff still there going to get.

I asked if we could lock the door. Someone almost did then didn’t – I did and when I opened it people waiting on porch hanging out – I opened/them locked the door and as soon as I did it was a trick/trap and gasoline was at entryway and started to fire at door/making exit challenging. Other entryway/blocked or no way to get out.

Masculine … went out for me putting up film—film with Masculine – then saying cake and what was 30 → : I made half. I went up there and cancelled my stay – no refund or void? I asked older black chick – I saw Masculine and other – made a rhyme about other and it not going anywhere. I said something about getting hit from every angle and Mom and Dad were driving old Civic. Had a front seat I said was cool. –getting 12 windows per day – then heading to ∴– camping would be cheaper than hotel I spent.

I took a pic of 222 → but then was late snapping and was 234.

For Masculine – was in neighbor’s yard → across → they had baby that was 1.

When I was walked out I saw [∴] saw Feminine and said she looked good. [lost weight] and I told Masculine and he was like okay – questioning –

I looked in mirror and [I thought did we look alike/resemble] while walking downstairs with Masculine [strung out].

Mirror: I thought and looked in my soul memory to future: did you see/sense me being with at any time in life?

I had hips and was older/seasoned from life.

I’m in the business with you.

 No one knows – no one cares.

Give me a couple like soft balls.

Warrenty number. My body language away from Masculine.

Retainer I ripped out of mouth at Masculine’s [first dream] it was painful and bloody.

September 5th, 2025

Dad and Son putting together this book—Mom and Daughter join in. They were a shaky foundation for me –∴. Relax, you’re free. They’re not linear. Glad you’re here and in his life and to be here for Masculine.
“I would make Masculine the happiest”. –her. I just had a crazy daydream. –her. Sitting on farmhouse porch after Masculine and I in grocery store and talk of ex husband. And she asked him out on a date Tuesday. [I’ve been saying it for months]. This why it didn’t feel right for me to cut this off/short. I just had a daydream, dream – crazy daydream: I would make Masculine the happiest. –her. –I hugged her and said: That’s why you’re here, I was thankful – thank you for being born – and to be here for Masculine. [she said at same time]

Life may break me and if it did. 

Every time a done dealer, I hope they seal her.

Masculine and I doing Mexican yoga.

Eloise. ←Witch[Hazel]/Halo.

Dad and Son putting together this book—Mom and Daughter join in.

They were a shaky foundation for me –∴.

Relax, you’re free.

They’re not linear.

Glad you’re here and in his life and to be here for Masculine.
“I would make Masculine the happiest”. –her. I just had a crazy daydream. –her.
Sitting on farmhouse porch after Masculine and I in grocery store and talk of ex husband. And she asked him out on a date Tuesday. [I’ve been saying it for months].
This why it didn’t feel right for me to cut this off/short.
I just had a daydream, dream – crazy daydream: I would make Masculine the happiest. –her. –I hugged her and said: That’s why you’re here, I was thankful – thank you for being born – and to be here for Masculine. [she said at same time].
Masculine and I talked about camper in yard after house cleaned—cleaned up. and could use the restroom inside. camper and dump tanks. She was like 25ish and small and cute. [I’ve been saying this for months]. I felt it.

Before: Masculine and I in room/restroom with Sister and Mom watching Masculine – me in shirt with no undies – and Masculine getting dressed. Sister looking at how sex his legs and upper were/think ∴ was showing.

We went in restroom I tinted – some debris up top I talked about redoing but was screw/nails underneath.

Mom: Whatever you want to do.

–on being married and having boyfriend.

∴ [–model #] and it was electric. no propane.

Or I like hearing the policy near his head –keychains. Or I like hearing the policy through his head –keychains.

Kept it too casually – looking for options – opinions going to separate.

Elephant, hyena, rhino.

On a new kitten farm.

Amber— is like this steady person in this direction I need to give back to dad.

My desire to show off is futile.

Cords in ice water/leaking water, be careful. Hazel, Halo with the dyed blue and green. –dyed faces. I was like woah.

But we don’t have good. In vibes in rejects of alignment. In vibes in reject with alignment.

Who is that – ∴ –Masculine.

September 6th, 2025

My desire to show off is futile