Shooting people shoot people. December. Baby: found him. In my stomach. –Masculine. [said in sleep]. A place where I was safe but not safe. Took long enough to find you. –Masculine. It’s hard for me to overlook my lifetime of knowing

Very specific soul chose her similar death. –Twin D reader

What does this message say. Fingers just really got a secret

Since we been through the time of a relationship – it breaks people’s hearts. Since we’ve been through the time of a relationship it breaks people’s hearts. My time is worth more than money

A kid asking 1 zodiac sign? When walking upstairs + I don’t know what to say besides I broke my own heart

It sucks we’re so restricted here and couldn’t go back. Ocean swim

We’ll give you the skyscraper ’cause you just wanted to touch the sky

Feeling more elite now. People gone out of box. [vision]. Unused, untouched, it’s mine

December 27th, 2024-January 3rd, 2024—Titles and excerpts 

Shooting people shoot people. December. Baby: found him. In my stomach. –Masculine. [said in sleep]. A place where I was safe but not safe. Took long enough to find you. –Masculine. It’s hard for me to overlook my lifetime of knowing

Okay that was the last they know about.

Underwater personality.

Had a really good childhood together.

Went against himself. Elm Street. This is how women under 4 grab their __ notebook. [vision].

‘God bless the fool‘.

Gotta keep whatever’s blinding heaven.

Big construction truck moving. [vision].

Before us turn down music—Another girl he was loving in addition to me – I looked at Masculine as I put my top on/topless. Music turned down in Sister’s room and 18 volume too low.

I total a sum of weeks @ the gathering.

Taking shower with Kathleen/Sam and fam cousins being there watching [I chose 2 showers as tips—options] I didn’t recognize at first then I did. Hair was greasy and I was—I hid above [with…rails]. And he looked up. Talking with Masculine and Masculine and they thought something of me when not.

Me throwing every bit of ceramic and items at his head and missing – him chasing after me and was going to kill me. [husband material].

He said do you think I want you to get engaged with.

And he was going to kill me because if he couldn’t have me.

Like ghetto Mexicans working [Feminine and Feminine]. And they took my light. [Family heirloom].

Such large toilets I’m telling you God doesn’t want me to do this.

You saved my life and you lost it.

Jumping from item to item/nothing hit him to take him out.

Shooting people shoot people. December.

Baby: found him. In my stomach. –Masculine. [said in sleep].

A place where I was safe but not safe.

Took long enough to find you. –Masculine.

It’s hard for me to overlook my lifetime of knowing.

Lifetime of knowing. Killing me the back and forth thing because I wasn’t feeling rested.

December 27th, 2024

Very specific soul chose her similar death. –Twin D reader

Missed something important I said – about Masculine.

Keeping 757-713-1110 phone when Dad no longer? Thinking –was thought.

Edgar Allen Poe book.

I told Sister I love hanging out with her on Saturday/weekdays/ly when we tint—Amber Amber Amber – you are rapidly. –Masculine.

I said I didn’t know what we’d do if we didn’t see each other and we do a lot of work in the mall.

I brought up Poe/architecture → $30 book I bought [abnoxious] for exchange and it never got read.

No need to make it crappy/or sexual. We were cleaning/Sister and I up mall. Spreading false hope [Masculine & I]. Gentleman. Pillar of exposure me. You need ‘em – hands me. Girl talk.

I think I can really help people [books].

People on beach – Masculine went home early because he didn’t have anything to do on beach days. I said why don’t you just read a book – let the time pass.

He’s the prime guy in my life.

People … let this happen to me.

You’re the first person I think of and the last.

Divine justice. [us].

Blow up in your face.

I had a reputation like Whitney Houston.

Known for her reputation.

Cosmic motivations through time. [¤¤¤¤] Postcard 1960s–70s/80s. Pics of things/found.

Even as we were talking, the loop was off.

I didn’t feel good not taking my vitamins.

This brand is a specific prayer to times in the wind.

I didn’t get a soulmate till then – it might be your last –me.

You’re inherently what I want.

My whole life – negative—positive—I love your status.

My whole life – negative—positive—I like your status.

Absorbing 2 for the physical intity and common pursuit.

Who I am—What I am – I have a Japanese display. Metal plate I was showing for … . Who I am—What I am—and glass. Displayed … .

Very rise animal kingdom next to you.

Out of 40 friends I stated for then Masculine. OBX movie, all … in water already.

But the world dressed quickly after the biggest mistake –song.

But the world dressed quickly after the biggest mistake –heavens.

Very specific soul chose her similar death. –Twin D reader.

He just would … . Anything legit dude I’ve … nothing. Guy wanting me to send him money. … . Sounds scary. If you don’t have light resembling … – rob money sounds scary. Masculine echo. Word mouth. Mom asking about my … there Grandmom there – carpet man hole in it – … . ∴—back – 2 kids got onto bike from garage golf cart—CW—he was rushing/showing off and running after ∴. Top CW lady said to me/asked if I could come in earlier – I said I would do my best—I drove with him golf cart to/then he got food – Masculine & Masculine met on tinting job and slight tension—why both here – me trying to get invoice up and tinting at CW/always 2 customers that aren’t happy. Dad and CW lady and then Masculine across – saying I always did

‘I was the one and you took me out’.

Masculine said I did good → with everything → I said the people, the tasks → everyone wants you back – wants/is okay with you working here – Masculine okay—doesn’t want to talk ‘because he likes me’. [∴].

And I was married right after college.

Due to plan B—Give birth to my little baby.

Goodness gracious.

I said I didn’t know where I would fit that in –∴.

They sometimes live a clueless existence on Earth. [Brandyn & Masculine].

December 28th, 2024

What does this message say. Fingers just really got a secret

I tried to get better and that just lunged at me. –Masculine to Brandyn.

Losing balance. Death trap.

That’s why I found you. ‘Watch how things get twisted now, watch how things get twisted‘. That like Lewis Lee lead but humble is he ready. –J. Lewis. Girl on J. Lewis.

Red flying ants to save life.

It doesn’t need to be harmonious tea –on earth. Red flying stinging ants.

Sent or say hey or hello.

Stab you in the back. Formless scare.

What does this message say. Fingers just really got a secret.

[Masculine/Feminine]. ‘Cause you’re not willing to change. Interest in what you’re doing. I’m not that liberal.

They were already boots made by heaven.

December 29th, 2024

Since we been through the time of a relationship – it breaks people’s hearts. Since we’ve been through the time of a relationship it breaks people’s hearts. My time is worth more than money

Old karma wench.

I kinda wanna go back to the marriage ∴. Knock knock knock. I’m not going to take your money from you. It’s too challenging for me to mesh seamlessly. I want my freedom and time and money mine. Gracias. Huge ∴ comparison.

Broke his heart. Little gangster. Stirring up the pot.

Since we been through the time of a relationship – it breaks people’s hearts.

Since we’ve been through the time of a relationship it breaks people’s hearts.

My time is worth more than money.

Him asking [Boy’s mom] me for a taco shell – enchilada – burrito/taco/I [long December] [stressed out] he [violated] [my trust] [okay hear me out] wanted a few dollars – to buy a taco shell – but he was being rude and didn’t really care what I wanted – I responded [Jesus Christ] [boring routine]. I my I will give you the money/– my time is worth more than money. He was like [get your shit together] [go somewhere] [Adams apple] throat ∴ let me be. Psych ward – never in my life again – a girl going ∴ on me.

Is it the … that you’re going through. Panties in a twist. Inseparable. ‘I neeeeeeeedded you‘—Sticks and stones may break my bones but words will never hurt me. Hindsight’s 2020—fuck all this.

Sister, I am officially in my era of chill.

Saw Feminine/Sister, me on phone with Billy … . … are fl…ing it.

I’m begging you not to leave me. Stick together.

‘Call of the undertow—just call it the undertow‘.

Spanish person – your d… yourself from your bucket. Sit back and lose… that’s some funky shit.

Me driving to the end of the road—shoes at end of—my shoes—road.

I was exiting a house with Masculine. And Feminine was around. Crowded with people and me wearing short shorts.

December 30th, 2024

A kid asking 1 zodiac sign? When walking upstairs + I don’t know what to say besides I broke my own heart

Feasible –me preg. Civil suit –them. Hypothetical. Take advantage of the situation.

Reverse karma.

Throw his ass in jail. Wow. Take care of his nieces and nephews. S∴bies for life.

<Anger>. Blatant anger towards her situation once the dust settles –congratulations on your raise.

Nefarious. Acknowledge the resources. Due to corruption. And Masculine. Huh. Kudos. Special Ed. I tried to tell him. Fuck that –her.

Old karma wench.

Brandyn’s smart. Brandyn‘s very smart. I’m up on my shit. Thank you. Very much. Christmas present. Fuck this shit. All of it. Anger towards her situation. Deliberate insult to the industry. Inside out. Bushcraft. She broke up with him. Loser. Loser/s – guys.

Do I look desperate because I’m not. Pillow talk extreme. Reset. Balloon.

The politics of the situation.

‘Baby you give good love’.

Catching up on paperwork. EDU. FBI agent. Dolphins.

Sorrow – Masculine/descending upon. He did it to himself. For sure. Little boy. Mess.

Not interested – Brandyn – at all. New opportunities. Kwanzaa. I’m super excited – I genuinely want to be alone. Speak for yourself.

Turtle head eating. Mark Cuban beer glass. Mark Cuban. Black lady friends with him I said why/70 been 70 – music playing going to restroom alone, etc. Masculine and I hiding under covers to get away from mosquitoes.

A kid asking 1 zodiac sign? When walking upstairs.

Feminine, Bonnie, C∴ A∴—her upset, not getting fucked enough → I gave C∴ a warning/heads up and she came back by. Feminine sleeping in camper sitting up – could sleep better.

I don’t know what to say besides I broke my own heart.

Diner Masculine and I → dropped the ham first on foot then on floor. Then they wouldn’t give a new one complementary. Then I said/compared to Panera → and a lady there worked at Panera too. [Wren]. [Feminine channeling my soul because Masculine gave it away].

[The plan]. Hardest time of my life/test/spiritual death/evaded physical.

Then I ordered pancakes because he ordered without me looking – then had strawberry sauce/berries → then while waiting → gave away → and I lost it → gave us some without berries/then I was sure/arguing they had them before → gave away to neighbors. –drove to Norge → saw cop → turn around.

Be fucking her in no time. Taylor Swift.

Saying syrup energized. Me yelling at diner so hard demanding my meal.

Why won’t Twin Masculine God, hold the weight of his sins.

A careful blanket and a headset to use. Woods/hunting.

Down boy. Why leave a teaser game. Teaser game.

Such a message of peace and intention.

Life is a rare double science.

Bathroom water leaking in cancer. camper. [vision].

It’s going to drive you crazy. He’s not into her. Crazy. Guilty.

December 31st,  2024

We’ll give you the skyscraper ’cause you just wanted to touch the Sky

There’s your phone number. Passive aggressive. Cleaning up your mess. I don’t care anymore. Telephone wire. Jungle boogie got you beat.

Path to self—Path to the empath. Training you well I see.

WTF. He think. No booty for you. Hidden alteriors. She knows she wouldn’t be satisfied. After what she been through—ghetto. Didn’t expect that. S∴bies. 4 lifer. Ahh! She’s crippled in regret – no more casual ∴. And that’s a problem. Insecurity. Not worth her soul/money. Settle out of court. A wreck. –her.

Awkward for all parties.

Should have treated me and my situation with caution.

Now everybody gets hurt.

‘Thinkin’ ’bout me thinkin’ about you sweet espresso‘. Guilty pleasure. Idiot.

There’s no coming back for more.

It’s decadence.

And satisfied humanity for the first time: It’s decadence.

Ate and – I did that pretty real – candle/incense → brown sugar/cinnamon brought back from slows. Blanket rolled up and me doing tinting.

It sucks we’re so restricted here and couldn’t go back.

Ocean swim.

Dale over bridge with trailer on back. Grandmom –. It sucks we’re so restricted here and couldn’t go back. Dale – Toyota → Masculine there → middle lane → just made it through safely → to get us over here. Food and bike ride and clothes on the floor. [clothes were on kitchen floor needing to be folded and that was a no no].

Was I with Sam in ocean and swimming back as 1/it was getting dark.

Grandmom there and even though I didn’t/wasn’t that close – she loved me.

Tint on door with where blankets were. Feminine and fat/super fat black guy trying to get his citizenship [on toilet] their kids meeting and 1 kid said Feminine’s kid was down to earth. Not stuck up. Breakfast food I was getting on a buffet so good → I kept making plate.

Crushing olive from Garden.

You can sit down with a long moment if you want. Why do you say that.

I’m not no longer living my life: I’m living for someone else’s.

Kayden never had all that at food before and couldn’t stay. The beat through the side neighborhood. Earlier things blowing up in outdoor large alley/garage way.

Fully legal prime. Police station’s last fire station.

[4 years] to get there.

Hear me it’s like huge. Hear me out.

If we both dated people we were okay with.

Girl dating multiple men—game show. One hard peanuts. chocolate. One wished [twin] they could go back and try harder to not be in friend zone.

I kissed 1 and got dirt off his face with hose water.

Couple buying 2 mugs and 3 for other people.

January 1st,  2024

We’ll give you the skyscraper ’cause you just wanted to touch the sky

The way your pain corresponds with mine.

I wrote this poem with trances in it. and it was read – I said I/was different but I could do the job too.

The bell’s ringing.

Masculine want me because I want him. On blog/he thought/caught wind. Attracted to you less. A doctor and his 2 sons came in a room with people and 1 old dog [I thought was baby] was picking up on lesbian vibes because of other 2 dogs.

Sat with dead zone answers.

Are you looking for pants or tank tops or a good time.

It’s always looked like your postcards here.

Black girls suck at gymnastics. Mom looking for my clothes.

With timid’s grindlessness, you’re the peck of.

You don’t gotta put people down – you earn their emotions.

Mom → me giving clothes to. Planters apps downloaded on phone. [different types of nuts from planters]. I had schedule – supposed to be at work at 3 1 it was 3 – almost 5. A huge … – $399 should have been 150. In the pile—rats in shed for trash. Hoping rats wouldn’t come back alive.

We’ll give you the skyscraper ’cause you just wanted to touch the Sky.

[In the restroom at Place, and was getting ready with make up on… knew Feminine was outside, then went outside to see her… She was talking to a guest and looked typical to me/wasn’t jealous as soon as I looked at her, my head turned upside down.

January 2nd,  2025

Feeling more elite now. People gone out of box. [vision]. Unused, untouched, it’s mine

Meditation for the following. Falling.

‘And then I see you – when I feel like I’m drowning‘. ‘And then I see you—it’s okay it’s okay I’m okay’. Nantucket. Taste of your own medicine. Barking up the wrong tree.

Feeling more elite now. People gone out of box. [vision].

Unused, untouched, it’s mine.

Me on interstate with semi and shoes/shoe store – men’s shoes and. I didn’t mean it like that. Yes you did.

January 3rd, 2024

‘God bless the fool’. Gotta keep whatever’s blinding heaven. Big construction truck moving. [vision]